Sometimes thread names aren’t so easy to think of || Klaine 

blaine-warblanderson:

hufflepuff-kurt:

“The flashback explained a lot…” He started slowly, closing his eyes. “I know why I couldn’t remember you and why my memories aren’t really gone but aren’t really completely there either. Once they found out I was…” Kurt spent a few seconds trying to find the word. “I’ll just be blunt. Once they realized that I was pointless to waste their time with, they decided to kill me. Except they waited, because what fun would killing the Muggle Studies teacher be if only three people were around to see it?” Kurt huffed in disgust. “They wanted to gather everyone to see me die just like Burbage. But, of course, that wasn’t enough. I needed to be broken by the time everyone else arrived.”

Kurt could hear the rising anger in his voice and feel it through his body. He hadn’t even known until this moment that he had any anger about what he went through. The numbness, panic attacks and distractions had all kept it away until this second. Is this why talking was good? “They found out about my nightmares. The ones where you died. I remember lying on the ground. My leg was broken too then-after I tried to escape, they didn’t want a repeat of that-and…” Suddenly he could remember being crucio’d, but he didn’t want to think about it. He was on a mission. And it probably would take a little while before he processed that enough to freak out. “…and I was also blinded. And then, since they wanted to take all of the fight out of me, they just kept playing the nightmares. At first it was fine. I knew they weren’t real, I just reminded myself I was lucky to have you. But I think that went on for a day straight, I’m not sure, and by the time you found me they’d done it so many times and it really confused me and…that’s still messing with me.”

Blaine listened intently. Things made a lot more sense now but that didn’t stop it from making him feel worse. They had used him as a weapon against Kurt, something that he never wanted to happen. This was something he was afraid of. Even during the first battle he had been afraid that they would somehow use Blaine against Kurt or the other way around. All because Kurt wasn’t of ‘pure-blood’ whatever the hell that meant, to Blaine Kurt was far better than over half of the ‘pure-bloods’ he had ever met and he still was.
When Kurt was done Blaine leaned forward and kissed him.
“Well…I’m here. I am going to try my best to help you. I know that I am not really the best for this sort of a thing but I am right here. I…I really don’t know what I can do but I am here for whatever you need.” he said quietly.

Kurt listened to Blaine, but he was starting to want to curl up and die from the crucio memory. “Thanks” he whispered as Blaine finshed talking, starting into space. He was clearly a little out of it, trying to work through what he hadn’t even known about. He tried to focus on the present but it was difficult and everything felt fuzzy. Hopefully he wasn’t about to start another panic attack.

Sometimes thread names aren’t so easy to think of || Klaine 

blaine-warblanderson:

“What do you mean?” Blaine asked a bit confused. He pulled back and looked at Kurt. He wasn’t entirely sure what Kurt meant. The flashback? Was that what he was talking about? Or something in the flashback

“The flashback explained a lot…” He started slowly, closing his eyes. “I know why I couldn’t remember you and why my memories aren’t really gone but aren’t really completely there either. Once they found out I was…” Kurt spent a few seconds trying to find the word. “I’ll just be blunt. Once they realized that I was pointless to waste their time with, they decided to kill me. Except they waited, because what fun would killing the Muggle Studies teacher be if only three people were around to see it?” Kurt huffed in disgust. “They wanted to gather everyone to see me die just like Burbage. But, of course, that wasn’t enough. I needed to be broken by the time everyone else arrived.”

Kurt could hear the rising anger in his voice and feel it through his body. He hadn’t even known until this moment that he had any anger about what he went through. The numbness, panic attacks and distractions had all kept it away until this second. Is this why talking was good? “They found out about my nightmares. The ones where you died. I remember lying on the ground. My leg was broken too then-after I tried to escape, they didn’t want a repeat of that-and…” Suddenly he could remember being crucio’d, but he didn’t want to think about it. He was on a mission. And it probably would take a little while before he processed that enough to freak out. “…and I was also blinded. And then, since they wanted to take all of the fight out of me, they just kept playing the nightmares. At first it was fine. I knew they weren’t real, I just reminded myself I was lucky to have you. But I think that went on for a day straight, I’m not sure, and by the time you found me they’d done it so many times and it really confused me and…that’s still messing with me.”

Sometimes thread names aren’t so easy to think of || Klaine 

blaine-warblanderson:

“Sorry, I’m just mad. This….I hate them. They had no reason to hurt you.” Blaine said simple and then just took a deep breath.

“Sorry, sorry. I’m calm I promise. I just…it’s a lot to take in but I need to know everything.”

If it had been Blaine, Kurt would have gone on a rampage by now. He understood Blaine’s anger, even if it felt strange that it was because of events that happened to Kurt. “There’s one more thing…” Kurt started. He suddenly felt guilty that he hadn’t told Blaine yet. “I…when I had the flashback last week. I should have told you earlier. I’m sorry, Blaine”

Sometimes thread names aren’t so easy to think of || Klaine 

blaine-warblanderson:

Blaine sighed and shook his head.

“It never really tends to work that way.” he sighed and then closed his eyes.
“I’m sorry you had to go through that though.”

Kurt flinched slightly at Blaine’s apology. He didn’t want sympathy. He just wanted it to all be back to normal. “Don’t” He whispered. “It’s not your fault, so please don’t.” Now just to bring up the last point. But maybe it was best if he let Blaine calm down before he threw that at him

Sometimes thread names aren’t so easy to think of || Klaine 

blaine-warblanderson:

Blaine kissed Kurt again and then wiped his tears.

“And I love you Kurt Hummel. You are the best thing to ever happen to me.” he said before kissing Kurt again his time when he pulled away he laid his head on Kurt’s chest.
“Thank you for telling me. I know that must have been hard.”

“I guess I though it would seem more real if I talked about it, but it didn’t change anything. I really just want to shut that out and forget about it. But that’s not going to work, is it Blaine?” Kurt sighed, running his hand through Blaine’s hair.

Sometimes thread names aren’t so easy to think of || Klaine 

blaine-warblanderson:

Blaine kissed Kurt then, softly. He wanted to assure him that he was there and that he would be for a long time to come.

“I’m just glad I have you back. Merlin, I don’t know what I would have done if I would have lost you. Just knowing you were….there was driving me insane.” he took a deep breath and rested his forehead on Kurt’s

“I’m sure I was thinking that you’d do whatever it took to find me. I’m sure I knew that before my memories were messed up. I don’t remember, but when I think about it all I feel like I kept telling myself I’d see you again and this wasn’t over. You didn’t lose me so don’t think about it.” Kurt held him tightly, now crying a little himself. “I love you, Blaine Anderson.”

Sometimes thread names aren’t so easy to think of || Klaine 

blaine-warblanderson:

Blaine tightened his grip on Kurt for a moment and then let him go. His eyes were stinging with tears. How could this have happened to Kurt.

“I…I promise that, this….well that will never happen to you again. Ever. I’m going to take care of you and watch over you ok? This…this wont ever happen again.” he said his voice quieter than it would have normally been. His chest hurt with how hard it was contracting.

Kurt was shocked back into reality by Blaine’s reaction. He hadn’t been in a flashback but he’d been so focused on making sure he could keep himself together that he hadn’t really cared about Blaine’s feelings. “I’m sorry. I’ll stop. It’s okay now, Blaine. I’m safe and healthy and I’m fine.” He wasn’t really sure he was ‘fine’, but his priority was making sure Blaine could handle this information. “What they did doesn’t matter” He pulled Blaine into a tight hug, now trying not to cry from reflex of seeing Blaine cry.

Sometimes thread names aren’t so easy to think of || Klaine 

blaine-warblanderson:

Blaine bit his lip as he listened. So that was the reason he was freaking out when they first picked him up. He hadn’t known who was there. It felt like Blaine’s chest was contracting. He couldn’t imagine Kurt going through his or why someone would want to do that to him.

“Was…is that it?” he asked after a moment.

Kurt shook his head. It was far from all. But he had to tell Blaine two more things. One was physical torture, the other one was what messed up his memories. Blaine needed to know about the second one. “I’m sorry, I’ll stop in a minute.” He felt bad doing this to his fiancee. Right now he was causing the other boy so much pain and it wasn’t necessary. Kurt shouldn’t have brought this all up. It was less hurtful to everyone else if he kept it to himself. But two more explanations. Then he’d stop hurting Blaine. They had to get through this. “They…well, the….” It was harder to start back up after their brief time of silence. “Water spell. They used a water spell. I couldn’t move and they kept splashing my face with water for god knows how long. And I couldn’t move or see and they rarely said the spell out loud so I never knew when it was coming.”

Sometimes thread names aren’t so easy to think of || Klaine 

blaine-warblanderson:

Blaine wrapped his arms further around Kurt securing them together. This all hurt to know. He knew the extent of Kurt’s injuries, he had asked the nurses several times over, but hearing it from Kurt was worse. It was easier to think of this from an outside prospective as opposed to Kurt’s own perspective.

“And was that…what else did they do besides the physical torture?” Blaine asked calmly as he could.

This was more of the reaction he was expecting from Blaine, and he was wondering if the other boy assumed it would be easier. He could hear the emotion in Blaine’s voice, even though the other boy was trying his best to hide it. Maybe it was best if he didn’t talk any more about the torture, with the exception of why he was suddenly avoiding showers.

“They…mostly stuck with physical…but…” He sighed, thinking things through. The whole thing had been emotional for Kurt. It was really hard, in a way, to define the mental torture when it tied in so well with his physical abuse. “…They used the blinding spell so I couldn’t see. It would wear off sometimes, but most of the time I couldn’t see. I got used to it, but I nearly had a panic attack the first time it was cast.” This was a good starting point.